changing priorities.

i shall force myself to stay at home everyday.
go to school -> come back home
no more late nights.

limruiqing, we gonna go clubbing on my birthday eh?
maman, azmi, jansen, tanny and all, you'al are invited too!

wondering: how will my birthday be like this year?

I LOVE WEEKENDS!
Who doesn't?

Caught Tokyo Drift with huiming, huiqi and sihan yesterday.
Thanks huiming for the tickets!
4 out of 5 popcons! :D

Chilled at NYDC aftermath with huiqi and sihan.
lemon shiver's nice!

Went back to Cine to meet Adrian & Amber.
Guess what?
Motive was to catch Tokyo Drift with them, AGAIN!
HAHA!

See, how nice is the movie?
At least to me.
This is the first time I watched a movie for twice.
Surprisingly, on the same day with only 3hours interval?
HAHA!

Met up with Priscilla & Evelyn for a few minutes at Cine.
Miss you'al :(

Went to Kallang Mac for supper.
Headed home at 4-ish am.

Adrian's my bestie!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DICKSON! <3
Once a bro, always a bro!

When the world is at peace.

I'm still stuck here with some e-learning shit.

NYP is unfair.
SBM students study like 3 days a week.
No examinations.
They get to work at Cheers or as other jobs.
Cool, isn't it?
Jensen told me this.
And I went like,"SO UNFAIR!"

In the middle of the night,
I missing him.
Missing him badly.
I don't like being alone at night.
I will think of those emo stuffs.
Sigh.

I'm doing just fine.
Without you in my life.
TIme makes me stronger.
You're no longer on my mind.

Vivian called to ask when I want to pass her Victor's stuffs.
Sigh.
Why?
Why am I so softhearted?
Sigh.
Perhaps, I'll be meeting her tomm in sch.
Goodbye my love.

wrong body clock?

i think i'm used to this lifestyle since sec sch days. like sleeping upon reaching home till god-knows-what-time. usually around 10pm. bathe then have my very late dinner.

last but not the least, do my work.

i'm feeling hungry.

my bro ask me to cook mee for him.
being a lazy bum, i ask him to order mac.
wahaha.

no food = cannot concentrate.

waiting for the kind mac delivery man.
it better not be benzei or augustine.
haha.
i doubt it will be them.
=X

Nicely spent weekend.
How wonderful?!

I miss those days when there's puppy love around.

Messaging each other.
Hoping that every message you receive will be him.
Hoping that he will ask you out.

That was all that have been happening in the past.
I miss those kind of feeling.
VERY MUCH!

emoemoemo.

anyway, we're getting nearer.
perhaps, to me and not him.

It's always the case that I've no idea where to go. And perhaps staying at home will be good? No cash and dressing up is much needed. Good thing? To me, weekends is the most enjoyable days. Most random, just catching up with some school work, projects and catching up with friends. Nah, it doesn't seems to be happening these few weeks. I wanted to complete my tutorials during the weekends. But the task just didn't seem to be completed every weekend. What bullshit ?

Was supposed to meet Eric today, but it was cancelled.

I suddenly feel angry and irritated.

Angry with myself? Irritated by people around me? Argh. No answers to these.

This is the road i chose. I can't be softhearted to give it anymore. I wouldn't have any benefits. It's saddening. Till today, I do tear because of that relationship. How stupid am I? I feel helpless.

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A lil about Friday.

School ended at 2:30pm.
Took 162 to Yani's place.
Went to Peirce Sec Sch (my sec sch) for Speech day.
Was invited.
Received the Top Performance in Principles of Accounts.
The 2nd year receiving this prize and the last year.
Miss the teachers, the people and the lifestyle.

After the whole celebration, went down to town for the Toys fare at Taka.
Yani bought presents for her naphew and niece.

Then..

Went to Prata house.
Met Maman there.

It looks like there was a Peirce gathering there.
Haha!
The prata house was filled with graduated students from Peirce.
Cool~

Saw Jon, Bao Sheng, Melvin, Yi Xian, Jun Sheng, Meisy, etc.

Gerry's mum went to pick her up.
Man and I sent Yani to the bus stop.
Both of us, went to meet Jensen, Tanny and 2 of their friends.
They were eating.

Man, Jensen, Tanny and I went down to Seragoon Garden's Liquid Kicthen for a drink.

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-Sat

Was at home till Adrian asked me out.
He picked me up from my place.
Headed down to Suntec for Fish & Co.
Wanted Marche, but the queue was horrible.

Shopped around at Suntec & MS.
Oh yeah, there was a midnight sales going on.
But nothing caught my eyes.
Just a pair of sandals from NOVO.
=(

Went Pasir Ris to pick Amber up.
Headed down to Cosy Bay.
Nice place =)

Gaylang for durians aftermath.
Sinful!

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Sunday!

I was out again.
This time, I was out for good.
=)

Met daoli at amk library.
studied -> NTUC -> Popular -> Dinner -> Home.

Gonna get myself offline.

Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

I'm gonna stay this way.

A bad start of the week.

Had Marketing Presentation yesterday.
I screamed at that idiotic singh guy.
He didn't want to have a dry run,
cos he insisted that we shouldn't skip lectures.
Fine, that's your point of view.
This project is a group project.

So, he happily went for lectures like a fool.
And called us with don't know what phone since he doesn't own a cell.
He said,"Lecturer said that lectures are important too."
Stella then asked,"So she's insisting that we go for her lecture now?"
Sickening idiot: "Nah, i'm just telling you."
So means you're trying to tell us that your obeident and all?
Oh pls.. look at how you look like when you're presenting?
I was so ashamed!

Others did rather well.
But, my group was the suckiest!
No words can describe how I was feeling.
I WILL NEVER NEVER GROUP UP WITH THE SAME PEOPLE AGIAN!

Perhaps, we didn't have a choice la.
Have to follow the groupings told.

I put in so much effort into the project,
but everything was ruined by the others.

FUCKOFFPEOPLE!

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Slept at 10pm last night.
I was too tired.
Didn't stduy for HTML test which is at 3 this afternoon.
Didn't do accounting and java tutorials.

WELL DONE!

Therefore,
I've planned to skip lessons till 1pm.
CMATHS at 1pm.
I can't skip Maths lessons.
BOOOOOOO!

Exam's coming.
God bless!

Multi-tasking.

Having uZap on my tummy,
doing Marketing report,
and listening to music.

Cool..

I'm free!
Free like a bird.
I want to meet all my brothers cum buddies.
I miss those people.

Thinking through, being single gives you a lot of advantages =)

I stayed back in school yesterday after school till around 6pm. It was better than last Friday, when Stella & I stayed back till 7pm. I was yawning away and decided to leave, so did the rest.

I was planning to sleep once I reached home.

Surprisingly, I DIDN'T!
HAHA!

I then decided to do some household chores.
I swept the floor,
mopped the floor,
washed all the fans at home,
wash the dishes which my bro was so lazy to wash them,
wash all the dirty clothes,
AND LASTLY,
helped my eldest brother to wash his uniform.

=)

GREAT!

I think it was a good exercise.
As I have made a promise to myself that I'll be going to the track yesterday,
but I was so dragged to.
'Cause I'll be running alone.
=(

Also, I admire the way my parents brought me up.
They always tell me that housework is a job for ladies at home.
Since primary3, I have started to wash my clothes and clean the floor.
I'm impressed that I know how to operate the washing machine at home.
Some girls don't know how to.

Okay, enough of side tracking. HAHA!

After doing those chores, I had to finish my part on the project.
KILL ME!
I better get this over and done with.
Don't wanna face this project anymore!

WAITING FOR PAULINE'S REPLY!
I WANNA GO SHOPPING!

I so wanna go Malaysia now.
Both JB & KL.
Jia's at KL.
And 'isofreakingmissyou' is at JB.
=(

P.S: MISS YOU!

I stayed back in school yesterday after school till around 6pm. It was better than last Friday, when Stella & I stayed back till 7pm. I was yawning away and decided to leave, so did the rest.

I was planning to sleep once I reached home.

Surprisingly, I DIDN'T!
HAHA!

I then decided to do some household chores.
I swept the floor,
mopped the floor,
washed all the fans at home,
wash the dishes which my bro was so lazy to wash them,
wash all the dirty clothes,
AND LASTLY,
helped my eldest brother to wash his uniform.

=)

GREAT!

I think it was a good exercise.
As I have made a promise to myself that I'll be going to the track yesterday,
but I was so dragged to.
'Cause I'll be running alone.
=(

Also, I admire the way my parents brought me up.
They always tell me that housework is a job for ladies at home.
Since primary3, I have started to wash my clothes and clean the floor.
I'm impressed that I know how to operate the washing machine at home.
Some girls don't know how to.

Okay, enough of side tracking. HAHA!

After doing those chores, I had to finish my part on the project.
KILL ME!
I better get this over and done with.
Don't wanna face this project anymore!

WAITING FOR PAULINE'S REPLY!
I WANNA GO SHOPPING!

I so wanna go Malaysia now.
Both JB & KL.
Jia's at KL.
And 'isofreakingmissyou' is at JB.
=(

P.S: MISS YOU!

With those tests from Monday till Thursday, is a killer. I swear! After these few tests, I have kind of WOKE UP from my lala land. It somehow motivated me.

Eliza, I need your help la.
Lets study together.
Lets go tanning.
=)

Done with the tests, I'll be busy with my Marketing ICA2, which is next Monday.
GOD BLESS!

Many things to be done,
for my own benefits,
or perhaps harm.

I can only choose one of the following, though my mum is fine with all, but not my dad.
-Tattoo
-Nose piercing
-Tongue piercing (but im scared it will get infected.)

Suggestions?

Before that, those who dislikes all these, you can keep your comments to yourself alright? Not everyone will be interested in this kinda thing.
Get a life!
Come out of your nut shell!

I had it all, but I let it slip away
Couldn't see I treated you wrong
Now I wander around, feeling down and cold
Trying to believe that you're gone

Love takes time
To heal when you're hurting so much
Couldn't see that I was blind
To let you go
I can't escape the pain inside
'Cause love takes time
I don't wanna be here
I don't wanna be here alone

Losing my mind from this hollow in my heart
Suddenly I'm so incomplete
Lord I'm needing you now
Tell me how to stop the rain
Tears are falling down endlessly

Love takes time
To heal when you're hurting so much
Couldn't see that I was blind
To let you go
I can't escape the pain inside
'Cause love takes time
And I don't wanna be here
I don't wanna be here, alone

You might say that it's over
You might say that you don't care, oh
You might say you don't miss me
You don't need me
But I know that you do
And I feel that you do inside

Whoa, love takes time
To heal when you're hurting so much
Couldn't see that I, I was so blind
To let you go
I can't escape the pain inside
'Cause love takes time
I don't wanna be there
I don't wanna be there, alone

I was suppose to keep the feelings among the 2 girls and myself, but I couldn't take it today. I just pour my words out during school-hours. Now, my group of bitches know about it and I think there are a few who have been eavsdropping into our conversation in the lecture threate. I do evasdrop into their conversations. HAHA!

I really need to have a break.
And think everything through.
Can I have a break?
I don't know how to tell him.

I want to be free from this.

P.S. I LOVE YOU!

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Skipped WAP tutorial.
Suppose to be our whole group except for Saihah who will be going.
Then, Huiming also went.
Shit!
HUIMING, you chickened-out la.
LIAR!

LOL.

When confusion hits me.

Azmi Rowely called me "STUPID" for a reason or another. It makes me wonder, "Am I stupid?" I have come to the conclusion that I am STUPID. This has just got to do with boys or guys you call them. I suck at this!

My pretty babe, Faizah shared a story with me. Very interesting story. I LOVE! I shared a story with her. I can tell you again, I suck at this. (This refers to the main topic of this entry - boys or guys you call them). I don't know which is the correct step.

And fuckingdamnshit, I have too many to handle. Okay, only 2 of you'al knows what's happening.

P.S. I LOVE YOU!

Put yourself into my shoe. How would you feel?

Supposed to meet the group members at 11am at school's Mac for project.

Then...

One said he wasn't aware and have scheduled himself for work. WTF! I've told everyone about the plans!

The other said she's sick. Msged me only at 11am. So last minute?

Nevermind..

So now leaving me and the other guy. But he stays in Malaysia and I don't know what time will he reach school.

FUCKINGIRRITATING!

I should have just relax at home la.
I'm going insane.

They ain't stressed up, but I am la.
Next week so many tests.

FUCK!

Maman's birthday @ Liquid Kitchen.

My boy's birthday @ Sentosa.

Was busy with school lately. When come back home, have to rush the next day's tutorial and go to bed. TIRING!

On Monday, met KeJia at Ang Mo Kio Library.
Accompanied her to study for her Economic Exam.
That disturbing Victor came.
Talked non-stop.
Got distracted and
left the library to go for dinner.
OH YES! Saw Pauline outside library, where she was doing her work there.
SO HAPPY LA! =) I'll make time for the KTV session!
Then went down to Marina South for dinner.

After having steamboat,
went down to Tampines to pick Rain.
Send Jia to meet Louis.
Send me home.
Both of them went for "candle-light dinner".
WAHAHA!

On Tuesday, went over to my boy's place for a stay over.

Today, gonna finish doing my work asap.
Gonna sleep early tonight.
Have been sleeping 3-4 hours a day.
NOT ENOUGH LA!

Marketing have been killing my brain cells la.
Fu*king ICA2!
Make me wanna puke! >.<
Changed from SingNet to Dell.
It better be smooth sailing.

THANKS TO DAOLI!
who have helped me in settling the class tee.
Sorry to trouble you so much!
AND...
I WASN'T ANGRY THAT DAY LA =)

Can't wait:
-to meet Pauline for shopping & KTV
-to meet Priscilla. IT'S BEEN A LONG TIME..........

It was hard to leave you. It was even harder to forget you. You're all I ever want.

uoyevoli <3>

On Friday night, met KeJia, Clara, Rain, Alvin, Victor & Denise. Some of Denise friends came along too. They went down to Seragoon Garden. Wanted to head to Liquid Kitchen, but was fully booked. Thought of places to go, then decided to go to Japanese Garden for a drink and to watch soccer. Aftermath, went to Geylang for supper. SINFUL!

After 12pm that night ...

My boy's birthday!
HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY! <3>

He came to my place for a stay over, and bumped down to the beach the next day with Ken, Wei En, Trevor, Gary & Penny. Many people could not make it due to SAF Day. Ate Sakae Sushi for lunch/dinner.

That idiot (my boy) don't know if he should have a hair cut. So, this miss girlfriend here have to make all the decision.

End up, I asked him to: -cut his hair -dye his hair (chocolate brown) COOOLLLLL.. at least, much handsome to me. It doesn't matter to you. HAHA!

After the outing, went to his place. Slacked till ... A few of them went up to his place to watch soccer.

Ending this post with a pic.

you treat me like a rose; you give me a room to grow.

Holding back my tears, makes me feel uncomfortable. Brother brought his PS2 into my room and he's playing with it now. I don't wanna cry in front of him. I predict he will do something nasty when he finds out.

But...

I can't hold it back anymore.
=(

Tomm's his birthday. His birthday wish, i wanna fulfill it. Then again, I'm afraid to. I don't wanna break down again. I want to be present at his birthday celebration. =( I don't have the courage to. I'm going crazy!

Sighhhhhh...

Taufik - One Last

I never could imagine, life without you
From the moment you walked into my world
Never knew how long a loving flame could burn
But losing you has forced me to learn
That we can't change the way we feel inside
And every try at love never turns out right
We both know it's better if we just let it go
So let's have

Chorus:

One last kiss
One last touch
One last tender moment between us
One last dance
To our first song
While pretending there's nothing wrong
Let's stay here for awhile and
Cherish every moment we're in denial
We both know
Its better if we just let it go

Everytime I try to take a stand at all
I see your face again and I fall
In the middle of the night there's the scent of a rose
The smell of your perfume I suppose
But we can't change the way we feel inside
And every try at love never turns out right
We both know it's better if we just let it go
So let's have

Chorus

Baby if we met each other under a different sky
Maybe then things would be much better between you and I
We could always hold on to this one special thing we share
But it would be too much for us to bear
So let's have

Chorus

We both know
It's better if we just let it go